A bl0g.

AAAHHH....2/3 weeks to university exams and we still dunno when our exam will start, for sure. My results came out. disappointing 63%. tho i cleared everything. now my total is jus a shade below or dead on 68%. Infosys cut off. oh well.. thats the least of the thoughts troubling me.

I really dunno why I am typing this out now. Guess its cuz I don 've any1 to talk, at the moment. Went for a small get-together today noon. me n 5 o my schoolmates. it was different this time. Old memories n stories were in the air...[ along wit the smell of the curries.. (sri krishna inn.. ;)) )]. recollecting on wat n how the schooling days were like. Wow.. it was amazing. like taken back in time. thinking of how it all got us where we are now. 5 outta 6 today have been studying there since 1st std. and outta the 5 .. and 2 o us have been in the same class since 1st! tho he has never been the really close to me. well.. tats not important anymore. Nostalgia.. After we all were talking abt it.. I could very well remember every damn year oh-so-clearly!.

Now I am thinking of the last 4 years. which, along wit my 11th n 12th, is all i really want to rememeber. the years before em - lets jus say - there is nothing to be really "aah.. wow.. yeah.. tat was fun" abt. Coll life has changed me a lot. my character.. n even how i look .. my schoolmates on orkut couldnt even recognize me from my pic.. :)). and few o em had a shock when they met me today.. they were meeting me after a LONG time.. hehe.

I have already posted abt these years I guess.. simply amazing. the last few months have been of my college.. since feb - will never forget em. It has changed everything for me. The entire class has changed. I can say tat our class has by far been one o the best my coll has ever had. as a batch - we are >>>> than our juniors.. (nothin against them, jus a fact.. and i am giving a general opinion. not picking any1 in specific. there are prodigies in various fields among the juniors) .. but collectively we are a much livelier n joyful group. even considering the seniors - must say - they were really an awesome batch .. we were jus good enough to take their best n improve upon it.

Abt my class... this is how - 1st year - I joined my batch after getting an option to do so. i was in the applied electronics batch for 1 week.. from the day I entered 2002.ec batch - I could see the division of groups in the class. Quite a bad one - merit quota students n mgmt seat students. Quite a sad sight - the front rows n the back rows had virtually now friendly connections. I still dunno how it was among girls.. tho it wouldnt matter.

I was stuck b/w two worlds.. I had joined on merit quote.. wit the rank 518. ( i think logitech somehow found abt it.. and renamed their newer mx version to mx518 .. :P ). back to the topic - I found it real weird.. as my mind wasnt in tune wit those amongst the merit guys/gals .. they were all wat ppl wud call "padipist" and the ones who dont really enjoy "college life". my friends were all amongst those in the mgmt .. and quite frankly i found the company better.. and more lively. Me n 2 or 3 o us were like the bridge b/w the 2 groups. (tho the groups existed - it was mutually exclusive.. no enemity). Then the group structures changed.. here n there..

This was so till .. umm.. say - the 3rd year - till we had gone for our trip to mangalore, coorg. Things started to change. the groups started to disappear. relationships changed. The entire class was starting to work as a single unit. The change can only be felt.. atleast, I dunno how to type it out. And come final year.. our class now has no internal groups, tho some ppl are closer to certain others .. etc etc.. tats not the point anyway. now there is a seamless connection b/w all o em.

This change from groups to a single group - EC, make our class different from the rest where the reverse is wat is seen. tho AE is very similar.. but tat wud be wit due thanks to the fact that the 95% o the class are guys.. ( :P .. jus friendly competition i should say.. EC > AE :D). But our class has a 3rd o girls and still the count seems so meaningless.. the "oneness" is somethin to be felt. The teachers agree as well. Any1 who has seen us together know how it is. >:D< EC!

well .. tats it I guess. I 'll be doing a take on each o my classmates as i get time.. i have to get back to my studies now.. 4 modules is todays target. 2.5~3 done. need to finish the rest.

here is to the best group any1 could ever be in.. RASET.EC.2002 batch pwnz ALL!
will never forget this last sem .. not a minute of it..
love ya,

n3o.:)>-

A light in the middle of the dark tunnel??

Exams OVER! .. atleast the internals... jus one set o exams remain between me n end o my engg life.. studies will continue..

have 3 days o complete freedom here.. waiting for my friend sahil to reach cochin. me n quite a few o us have planned to have a complete blast for these days.. for there wont be a chance like this again.

I needed something to break free with... my way out - UT! Reinstalled it back for jus 4 days. and IT FEELS SO DAMN GOOD.. HELL YEAH! I play not jus for the fun.. but also to let out all tat aggression .. even when i am feeling down.. this helps .. and now i feel way too good! was feeling sick n tired o coll n exams n studies all throughout..
jus letting myself free ...

"reclaiming my life"!!

played like 10 games.. jus lost one... need to clear tat one game as well.. tat i will! gdp - moi waiting! >:)

tats it for now!
adios
:)>-

n3o.

Over and.... out. :(

Times come n gone... its officially over.. the farewell. Tho its jus been 2 weeks or so .. seems like a lot has happened and its like 4 years.. damn! My internal exams got over yday.. suddenly there is nothin to do! (yes..univs are there.. but tats all a month later) ..

:(

Evident Changes

"
Sure, if we change our perspective
Im certain I will change today
Im certain it will change our ways
When things fall into place

I want you to lead me
Take me somewhere
Dont want to live in a dream one more day
"

- In Flames - Come clarity

this blog was written a long time ago.. never completed it... now i am finishing this one..

this was the me till a few weeks ago..:

An attempt to explain why people like me are so engrossed in gaming.......

I dunno how successful this wud be... well.. for those who don know ( :P ) ... i am pretty much into hardcore gaming... and have reached a pretty decent level compared to rest.. and really good compared to the players in the country. okie, tat aside, why did i get hooked into a simple, ... COMPUTER game?

its somethin every1 is askin me... its something a few a****** make fun o me with. i don care wat they say. i love playing Unreal Tournament 2004 and wil continue playing it til the next version is released.

oh and some say its kiddish/childish to be playin a comp game when u are 21... lol... fools. :|. let me explain why a game .. a game based on the simplest ideas - kill ur opponents more number o times than he/she takes u out, can be so engrossing as to have made me play it for the past 1.5 years or so...

a small intro in to wat UT2k4 is all about - its a FIRST PERSON view based SHOOTER game where 2 or more players are put into a closed area - which is called a map/arena. all u have to do is aim n shoot. the map has, located in certain areas, armour, health, weapons, ammo etc.. the player can move, jump , look up n down, sideways all tat...

now stil the question remains - WHY 1.5years, rite??
quote from the book - Jonathan Livingston Seagull -
"Heaven is not a place, Heaven is not a time, Heaven is BEING PERFECT".

tat ONE line says it all... a game tat looks so simple offers SO much ...SO MUCH variations in the way it can be played by a player... defense/offense, shoot using 10 + different weapons each havin a unique property which can do max damage to ur opponent while u take the least.. then there is the choice of movement... the variations are beyond a layman's imagination. then there is the art of perfecting the aim, movement, strategy, using the sound to locate ur prey,


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this is the me NOW.
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completing the statement - its an art to be able to play we ppl do. its a skill that demands so much......... so much .. it made me lose so much. :( .. I am lost. I wudnt know why... I have quit gaming till my univs are over. I was really getting to level so different... for except SS, I was giving every1 a run for their money.. its not the scores tat tell the story. its the way i used to destroy my opposition wit surgical accuracy... (or docs wud start saying - we operate patients wit headshot-everytime-accuracy ; )) ). Gunner knows this.. Stryker knows this.. Darth Duttan knows this... Korn knows this.. spawn, snake.. name em .. any1 who has played me recently knows - one death is enough - game is almost over. SS cud feel the sting tho i never really got around to beat him. I AM NOT DISS-ing out at any1. we are among the best our nation can offer in this game. (this is jus frustration i am taking out .. )..

But the gamer in me still exists. Sharp, focused, honest, in the face, passionate. I spend my time driving around, biking, chatting wit friends over sms, proj work. studies are improving slowly. .

Why did i get here...? ( Why / )Was gaming the reason for me being in this position. I doubt it. But ran outta options. Life was punishing me too much for reasons I cant seem to understand. and i am not able to write abt the actual reason i started typing out the post.

but - Gamers will be gamers. a different breed. ppl who are actually more normal, more human than ppl who who don play. this is for sure. there is no questioning it. U cant.

" I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin
……..

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me"

- Linkin Park - Papercut.

Stil searching for reasons... for all thats been happening.

:)>-
Suraj.

Inevitable changes.

I had it coming. I knew it the moment I opened my notebook. It was exam time. and this time I knew there was no hope. I tried. I tried hard to learn n understand as much as i can. but again time was against me. I had n have NO 1 to blame. My fault. My mistake. And I am not going to fall to my knees and pray for mercy. I am going to set things RIGHT. Myself.

As an safe measure I have done a few things:
1.) Switchin off my phone during evening hours
I am a sms junkie.. or watever u call ppl who do 60 smss an hour or more.. wit real easy. I think that has been really a big factor in me spending time chattin wit friends and not studyin when I should've been.
2.) Keeping the net down.
again.. a chat machine. I chat almost as much as I talk. tat too takes ... no ..EATS away at my time. Cut tat down by a big margin.
3.) the BIGGEST one o em all - Uninstalled UT.
for those who dunno... some o my friends say - its more important to me than water or fresh air. ..well not TAT important. but it was like a part o me. A part o me tat makes me calm. Playin used to take away all my anger, it used to ease my pain. my drug.
but i think too much o anything wud, infact, harm me... any1 for tat matter. It has. BIG time. I used to like play 3-4 games a day. easily adding up to 2 hrs.. including the chat for server address.. map selection, chat in game, waiting times, server rehosting due to lag, practice session before match. There.. 2 hours a day for gaming when i barely had time to do my daily portions.

I sleep by 10-10.30 .. or max 11. I mite sit up late if i am chattin wit my friends. else no. I dont, DEFINITELY , study after 10 pm. So the only time I have is 7-9 when I am home. and i am not allowed to sit infront o the comp after 10.30 usually. so there u go.. do the math. I HAVEN'T BEEN STUDYIN A WORD. since jan.

the end result - i failed in 4 outta 6 papers. My WORST performance. one tat i am DEFINTELY NOT proud off. I have never been this bad at exams. mainly its cuz I am a person who grasps topics easily and to get a pass or even 60% .. i need to jus pay attention to class lectures. atleast tats the way its been for the last 18 yrs .. since i started my LKG. 18, is it? aah.. anyways. ( i havent failed a year yet.. so make the correct count.. :P) ..
.. and this is exactly the reason for my poor performance THIS sem. never been payin attention to class. distracted. and upset over few things.

Now, watever has happened has happened. I am glad my parents and teachers have been really supportive of me and are helping me get over all this. I have started studying. really.
today i am taking a break. Sitting down. reading a book - "the case for faith". My friend gave this to me. Seems like she felt there were a few things wrong in my "god blog". Interesting book. Jus 40 pages into it. I already have a few questions of my own.. tat I think the author has missed out on. Maybe he does indeed asks those q's and find answers. Let me see. YEAH!.. I WILL BLOG abt tat after I am thru. Expect tat one by 9th o april.

Listening to "I still havent found wat i am looking for" by u2. Nice song. Neat, meaningful lyrics. I dunno .. having this addiction to lyrics these days. Been listenin to rather more o soft songs than my usual dose o heavy metal. I am changing all over. and I am only happy tat I am doing it myself. Have understood my mistakes, learnt em, now correcting the same.

"
I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you


I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you


But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
"
- U2.

btw, I WILL be back in gaming the DAY my final year exams are over. and I am going to raise hell.

: ) > -
the >:) signing off.

Breakpoint function

So, are you breathing

Wake up, are you alive
Will you listen to me
I'm gonna talk about some freaky shit now
Someone is gonna die
When you listen to me
Let the living die, Let the living die

   (voices - disturbed)

Frustration! anger.. i dunno what i am feeling...

Nothin has been rite for a few days now.. horrible weather... UNBELIEVABLY UNUSUALLY BORING CLASSES ... bad time all around.. ( a few things i am not mentioning here as well)... and today was another BLEAAAAGRRH of a day.. my god.. going totally insane...

Push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I am today...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

Perfect! ... I am going insane.. life aint fair... ya.. many mite say its not.. and tat we have to fight it.. watever.. true.. but this isnt JUS UNFAIR.. its GROSSLY unfair... NOW don ask me why... i am fixing it up...

there is another blog i am workin on... tat wil come up later..
this one is jus to put my anger out...

today went playin ... MY god.. i dunno.. FRIGGIN ADL or STUPID NEW MICROSOFT KEYBOARD... it JUS WUDNT respond even as much as my prev broken keyboard wud (which i had used.. no... slammed around for the last 2 years) ...

then another thing - the STUPID MORONIC OFFICE Staff wont get me my marklists attested. okai.. the reason - simply put - for my GRE thingy...

then the bus strikes.. omFg.. all this is CRAZY.. wat the hell is wrong wit everything??

me all off the hook... pray no1 comes arguing wit me over the net now... atleast for today... else he/she is a goner... :| ...

(yup.. this one is very random ... and i usually don lose my cool... but rite now.. i have no idea wat i am abt to do the very next second... )

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!


Rarely i am like this... and its not going good... not helping...

oh well.. jus a blog to release the madness..

>:)>-!!

Can't you imagine how good going through this will make you feel
I promise, no one will ever know
There will be no chance of you getting caught
They never loved you anyway
So come on, be a man

NO.. i am rarely like this..... :-< 
And do what I are compelled to do 

The tag of hate......

" Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You f**ker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me"


- Down with the sickness by Disturbed.

now, I dunno exactly why i put tat chorus part there... but somehow it suits the situation.... and the situation is tat i have been tagged by GDP.
...err.. no no... not mad at him.. but the tag this time is for bloggin abt things i hate/dislike.

I am not too sure how many such things are there... lets find out... these arent in any order of "preference" (if u may call it so)... jus typing em down as it comes to my mind... okai.. lets get started.. (puttin on tat song ... >:)! )

=> Dishonesty - ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. No compromise on tat .. I mite not react.. but trust me.. that relation is over for sure.

=> Talking behind the back - Now, tats so lame... aint it?? no guts? BAH.. suxOr. If u got somethin to say.. SAY it on my face... be a man! (ohkai.. if u are a girl... then... stil applies... not the "be a man" part tho :P! .. so either way.. SAY IT!)..

=> Ppl who make comments unnecessarily - I did say, I keep away from em... I am really mild mannered.. very calm.. but once I lose it... no control.. anything goes.. I rarely regret somethin I do. Come on, wats the need to comment on things jus like tat .. esp when it has nothin to do wit em??

=> Okai, coming to the state o the city n all... jus like tat... as it comes in things i hate - The traffic... FRACK!!!!!!!! OMG, cant ppl jus drive wit sense????? either they drive as if its time for them to leave planet earth and determined to take a few along wit em... or they drive as if time has slowed down for them... :|... OMG!!!

=> Oh this is an easy one - POLITICIANS!!! =)) AND X-( .. these mofo's... i did say 99% o em.. to the rest 1% - i am sorry.. ur achievements are MORE THAN OVERSHADOWED by the rest... sad case. :(.

Jus take this - the city is already friggin full wit traffics.. and in the rush hours.. on the main roads... they have march/protests... retards! :|. and now the next month, the congress / bjp .. i don a f anyways, they are having some political rally here... rite when we cant even drive around properly.. dear me.. why are ppl actually supporting all this CRAP?

=> Beliefs - Okai, now this... I believe in somethin... u can read the blog below for tat... and I don press my belief on any1... And its better to leave one to theirs... I've seen ppl sayin tat they are rite abt their religion, their faith - BULLSHIT... none it is proven.. who the frack can say they are rite? For me, I believe in Truth . I don believe in religion cuz what is being practiced today.. atleast as far as i can see it.. is a waste o time.. and NOT wat the real books on those religions say.

=> Coming to computers - I hate slow PCs, cluttered desktops, bad-tracking mice, broken keyboards, screwed up headsets or bad speakers... dark monitors... hehehe..

=> in gaming... i hate cheaters/haxOrs, ppl who play wit a negative attitude REALLLLY take it from me...

=> ppl who show jada.. no need to explain...

=> I hate answering more than a page in my b.tech papers... =)) .. i am very much to the point... i am not the one who goes around the bush ... and writes long answers... i answer, like spawn says - "short and l337"!!.. but friggin problem is tat i don get enough marks to justify my capablities... one thing is the answers are short.. but they DO contain the points... and M.G univ gives marks like as if they weigh it and then put the marks :|.

=>I HATE ppl saying Gaming is for kids... I can write an entire blog sayin why its not.. i wil.. maybe SOME1 mite get it into their heads...

=> I hate the tamil movies... esp the new ones... and HINDI - ~X(!!!!!!!!!!!!! the new movies ... except "rang de basanti" and "swades"... rest - HYPERSUX0R!!!!!!!

=> Hate BSB and shitty music like tat...

=> Hate Mallu "mega" serials...

Okai.. tats abt it... if any.. i'll add em below this line!

next tag - spawn. :D
peace ppl...
adios...
:)>-

She is the one...

Was tagged by Sp^wN. Rules:
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims have to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they’ve been tagged. (hehehe)
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there’s no need to post again. (DUUH!!!)


This tough... hmmm.. getting down to think ...

(10 mins later, the keyboard is pressed...)

this person wil be referred to as 'she' (sorry spawn... cudnt think o another way to address the person atm :"> ;D)

as usual... this is going to be short.
=> She has to be honest... and yes.. there is NO compromise on that. absolutely straightforward, in-the-face type honesty.. no holding back. Its the way i am and i would like 'she' to be like that too. There are very few things that do make me really angry.. and one o that is dishonesty... and also shying away from telling somethin that has to be. Cuz thats one o the reasons relations break up. gets on my nerve ... she has to be clear on what she says, and shouldn't keep ANYTHING away from me. so thats point one - honest.

=> Should i say she should be pretty? that wud be a stupid statement... "beauty lies in the eye o the beholder" .. well she WUD DEFINITELY be pretty ..very pretty, atleast in my eyes, if i were to fall for her. ;)) ...

=> Faith - Free to believe what ever 'she' believes in. Follow ANY religion. But shouldnt, EVER, try to force it on me. It wont work. again one o those things i am a bit inflexible on. But nothin will stop her from following what she wants to.

=> NO smoking or drinking habits. No need to explain that. hehe

=> Should love to travel, with me of course. Not tat i am a multi millionaire who can take a trip around the world any day i want.. But i love travelling.. and going around places. So whenever such trips come around, she should be happy to be along. Even the walk on beach durin sunset, or, u know, those beautiful quiet roads, those - yeah...

=> Music- this can be as sensitive as faith thingy. I generally dont listen to malayalam music OR any o the new hindi movie songs.. they make me go :-& : ~X( ... even a few english artists like bsb. Not tat she has to be a fan o what i listen to - which is rather techno/trance/heavy metal to soft music and a few , yes VERY FEW, hindi songs. so she should be one who has some common tastes.

=> Dressing up and styling - Well upto her... she shouldnt be all the saree/salwar type... nor should she be one who spends more time at the beauty parlour than with me.. natural beauty is what appeals to me, and she wud look good without any make up.. sure abt tat!
(oh and she rather have long silky hair.... i myself have tho not REALLY long.. it is long enough.. and she cud really get jealous o tat ... hehehehe.. i cudnt keep that one down )...

=> Towards other guys -Wudnt mind her talking to other guys unless it gets ..u know.. otherthan that - i am cool wit that. no problems.

=> Computer related- "I'm talkin' keyboard bangin' multitaskin' RAM burnin' HARDCORE USER CHICK!!! >:)" (hehehe.. this one line i picked straight from spawn's..perfect explanation o what i wud look for too)... and may i even say she should have some fragging skills??? teehee... okai.. that IS a bit too much to ask for... hell, i wont have time to play n all when i am wit her, will i??? hehe...


Well.. thats abt it. Oh now i guess i have to tag some1 else? - well... i got jus one person to tag - i dunno if he wud accept it - anyways - Ashwin E, u are on!! :D

I am not the one who falls for any1 i see jus like tat. . i take my time.. but once i am sure, i wudnt have any problems telling her.

Hope i'll find her someday..... hehe.. i will.
peace. out.

:)>-

What if it all ended soon? :(

54 days n counting .... have max fun... wat the hell!!!! ..

"naaluvarsham ayi orimichu ozighi kondu erruna e puzha eni 64 ya pirum" ( translation - the river that has been flowing together for the last 4 years wil now split up into 64 parts) ...

this was that i saw today morning on the board in our class... :-<>:) .. but wat the hell ... why should we have to keep a count on all tat?? it makes me n all o the rest o em so ... sad?.. no .. an understatement.. we all go all silent when we even think o it.... the college life is coming to an end... GOD NO!!!!!!!! wat the hell!

after all ... (agent) smith was right.. always right.... (i hate that tho) .. "everything that has a beginning has an end". No.. this aint fair (again smith says that {jus a statement} ) ... but its true after all..

well.. let me jus look a lil back ... 3.5 years back.... when I joined college.. I didnt have a very fun filled school life till the 9-10th std.. no steady friends n all... and then a REALLY strong friendship in 3 guys... well.. tat made my school-life fun.. and made me feel all upset when i had to give up the school life .. and move on to college... all those 3 were in different parts o the country... was all upset for the 1st few months o coll.. never really opened up to any1 .. shy ,as i am since 20 sep 1984, never really made gr8 friends.. then eventually ... as a rule o nature.. or somethin... i did make "friends" (then... ) .. in 3 ppl... (now my best friends).. after tat .. i never really felt like i missed school.. almost forgot abt it.. not my school friends tho...

Coll life wasnt all tat hip.... well..DUH.. its rajagiri after all... year 1 did give me these 3 really good friends... then in 2nd year... i added to those 3 .. one more... these 4 ppl form the core around which i am ... (no.. not tat i don have any other friends... i am virtually connected to all o em in my class.. and many in my coll... )..

oh again... these are all random thoughts... jus typing em in as them come to my mind....

well.. its final sem now.. and it was jus tat time when all o us were gettin really close to each other ... and right when it was all perfect... this message ... AGGRRH.. a scary reminder that the fun is going to end all too soon...

some might say - "the net is there".. "we are placed in the same company" .. no... once we leave this place.. its all going to change.. all this happened when school was gettin over as well.. barely few ppl keep in touch... :|

well... guess it has to happen someday... have to enjoy it while it lasts.. ... *HUGE SIGH*..


but...

..
..
..

jus wish it stayed a bit longer......................

:)>- wit a :-<

love ya all.. whoever is reading this....

The F-ing G5 mouse.

"d00d, u Fing spend Fing 4K on a Fing MOUSE????"

okai.. this is the the question (well.. variations too) i am asked always when they see me usin a black n orange colored mouse on the PC... it has a rough finish.. burnt look ... looks solid tho. this is my mouse - the logitech G5 Laser mouse.

for the uninitiated - check out this link : Logitech

this is, to an average user or newbie, a ergonomically shaped mouse that uses a LASER tracking system rather than the ball mosue from stone ages or the LED based mouse used today.. this is a mouse tat is going to be the standard of the future.

well.. plain n simple... i love technology. i brought a PC, an year ago.. i got the same q - u spend SO much on tat PC? .why?... i like havin a technology edge...

well.. coming back to the topic of the mouse.. its MADE for gaming. now again.. spending 4 k for gaming.. GOD... tats wat is probably comin to ur mind now.. well if u ask me .. its same as asking the cricket team why they use stuff that are so expensive.. u get a cricket bat for 300 bucks n also a bat tat costs 5 grand. so do u ask the same thing to a cricketer?..

okai.. another analogy... say.. u are takin an exam ... u want to get good marks ... and wanna be the best among the lot atleast. so wat can u do abt tat ...

1) study
2) have the rite stuff tat wil help u do well.. - good pen, pencils, compass, eraser, all tat...

so.. if u study well.. and don 've the rite stuff.. u can stil perform.. but definitely it wud be better if u had those. now when the students takin the exam along wit u are also equally well learned .. then the "rite stuff" wil really help.. (Obviously.. some1 wit the BEST stuff but no learnin... is going to be of no real challenege)

its somethin like tat... gaming requires a lot of skill,dedication n passion. but along wit that.. comes the need to have the rite stuff.
As i play better skilled players.. the RITE stuff helps compensate it.
Its SKILL + a good gear tat helps me be among the best i know, in person.

skill alone wil do when u are up against a weak opponent. but when ur opponent is equally skilled.. then the rite gear is needed.

so tat answers ONE part o the question i am being asked.

now there is another side to it. - money.
the mouse cost me... err.. my father - 4 grand. so is it worth it? .. well u jus gotta ask me friends who play against me.. or hell.. jus try me! and yes.. its worht every single penny spent on it.

one negative side tho - its ADDICTIVE .. it offers so much control, accuracy and the response is so fast... (to the ppl who know wat to do wit it..its not jus clicking... there is lot more, trust me.). Gaming was never more fun.

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